WHAT if...

What if I am 65 and look back and regret all the time I wasted on trying to get pregnant or
make a decision about donor egg or adoption.

Seriously, what if?  At this current rate I don't think it is out of the realm of possibility.
How can it be that 6 years have already come and gone and I am still not sure what to
do next?  I used to think I was going to be that person who adopted and never looked back.
Or better yet....the person who didn't care about having a family and just rolled with
the punches.  No kids....no problem.  Just become a heart surgeon or something.
Absorb yourself in a rewarding career.  Cure cancer.  Do something amazing with your
child free life.
Well guess what....I haven't adopted and I am in the same job and not much is happening.
Sometimes I find myself searching the internet for answers that are like a needle in a haystack.
What about this herb, this doc, this program.  I score the internet in search for one more story that will lead me to the answer to end my infertility.  As if cyberspace was Buddha or something.
Craziness!!!

What if I am 95 and sitting on my front porch next to my husband smiling and drinking lemonade on a hot summer day?
Well....that would be a pretty damn good day!

Check it out, learn, understand, realize, and empathize.
 a basic understanding of infertility: www.resolve.org/infertility101 
 the background of National Infertility Awareness Week (NIAW): www.resolve.org/takecharge.*
 the original “what if” list: http://www.stirrup-queens.com/2010/04/bloggers-unite-project-if/.